I can't do this anymore. I can't stand this. Not being able to hold you like I could. Your arms not holding me like I wish they would, but know they never will. If you could hold me close, would you quiet this fear? Keep me still, give me peace. You could make me smile, give light to these dying eyes. You, making me laugh, your eyes sparkling with warmth. But you leave me cold. Cold like ice, melting in your warm hands, so near to your warm heart. Cold, like death in a still winter morning's sunshine. My death - pure, sweet death, in the sunshine of your love. My death in your eyes, through your beautiful words, with which you are killing me, unknowingly. Yes, undoubtedly, you are killing me, softly, through your sweet words and with your sweet voice. I have not chosen love. Rather, love has chosen me. Cruel and bitter, love's arrow has struck, wounding me beyond recovery. Irreversible pain. But I would not escape this pain. No, I would feel this pain forever if it meant being close to you. You are near, and though I know you are near, I cannot see you. And so my words fail me. Stumbling, stuttering, fragmenting while I try to ignore your breathing, pay no attention the steady beat of your heart, in time with the unsteady faltering of my own. For whom does your heart beat, dear one? Surely, not for me. Not for all my love, concealed within my laughter. Not for all the caring, the worry, in such plain sight; can you see, in my eyes? But my heart; oh, this heart. This heart beats for you, only you. And though you cannot see, though you will never know, this will not change.

Oh my baby baby I love you more than I can tell
I don't think I can live without you
And I know that I never will
Oh my baby baby I want you so it scares me to death
I can't say anymore than "I love you"
Everything else is a waste of breath

I want you
You've had your fun you don't get well no more
I want you
Your fingernails go dragging down the wall
Be careful darling you might fall
I want you
I woke up and one of us was crying
I want you
You said "Young man I do believe you're dying"
I want you
If you need a second opinion as you seem to do these days
I want you
You can look in my eyes and you can count the ways
I want you
Did you mean to tell me but seem to forget
I want you
Since when were you so generous and inarticulate
I want you
It's the stupid details that my heart is breaking for
It's the way your shoulders shake and what they're shaking for
I want you
It's knowing that he knows you now after only guessing
It's the thought of him undressing you or you undressing
I want you
He tossed some tatty compliment your way
I want you
And you were fool enough to love it when he said
"I want you"
I want you
The truth can't hurt you it's just like the dark
It scares you witless
But in time you see things clear and stark
I want you
Go on and hurt me then we'll let it drop
I want you
I'm afraid I won't know where to stop
I want you
I'm not ashamed to say I cried for you
I want you
I want to know the things you did that we do too
I want you
I want to hear he pleases you more than I do
I want you
I might as well be useless for all it means to you
I want you
Did you call his name out as he held you down
I want you
Oh no my darling not with that clown
I want you
I want you
You've had your fun you don't get well no more
I want you
No one who wants you could want you more
I want you
I want you
I want you
Every night when I go off to bed and when I wake up
I want you
I'm going to say it once again 'til I instill it
I know I'm going to feel this way until you kill it
I want you
I want you

You come to me one night, in darkness. You do not speak, but walk purposefully towards where I sit, head buried in my hands. You lift my chin up with a finger; one look into your clear brown eyes and every ounce of control in my body evanesces. I hastily brush my tears away with the back of my hand, but you stop me. You pull me close to you, and I can feel your warmth. I feel your heart beat. Very quickly your warm body is against mine, my hands around your neck and yours around my waist. Your sweet breath leaves me dizzy. Your lips crush mine softly, but surely. My heart rate quickens, and my face begins to flush. Your hand moves to the small of my back, and you pull away slowly, but the sweet taste of gin and honey lingers in my mouth. Gently, you release my hands from around your neck, and drop yours from my waist. You back away slowly, and I begin to protest but you simply lift a finger to my lips and smile. My stone heart is melting. My breath catches tightly in my chest as you walk away from where I stand, shrinking slowly until nothing is left beside me but the empty darkness from which you came.

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love".
~ Neil Gaiman

I don't know. It made sense to me.